So I was sitting in my dining room looking out at my canoe thinking about what I will say to you when I get down on one knee and ask if you will marry me. So I am just thinking of how to play it out in my mind when I saw the wind blow and the wooden chimes chime. It brought peace to my soul and comfort made me whole. It eased my mind let me know its alright and that no matter what I say it wont change anything on anyday that I still love you. I figured that you would enjoy this more than I could. I figured that whether I said it right or not you would still say you would take my hand and go for a ride towards that goal of eternal life with me forever as my wife. So I will ask you this if I said it on one knee, love in my heart with all I have and I simply asked would you marry me, would you just look me in the eyes tell me you love me and that you are surprised that I did not write a poem or some lines to say before I asked and would you get down on that knee and just sit there looking at me as tho I know the answer already. Would you kiss me on the lips and tell me that you will, would you look me in my eyes and say I cant hide how much I love you from your eyes you will be my spouse the best one ever out there. Would you tell me you cant wait until march and say a date would you tell me we will be happy for eternity. Would you just accept that I have no gift of setting up mushy ways or sets to ask you with my ring the humble little thing and say to you my queen would you marry me. Would you marry me?
Hope. How do you kill the hope within when you know the end has come. How do you let go of something that you never wanted to let go of. How do you bring peace to yourself and be a balancing force for others. How can you move forward when your so damaged from pain and sorrow. Why is there still hope when you know its fruitless. Why is there still compassion when you know it deserves coldness. Why kindness instead of evil. Why love instead of hate. Why do you not just let go. Well, sometimes you just cant. No matter how hard you try. No matter what you do. It. Just. Wont. Leave. Its called having a huge heart, or also referred to as, a heart of gold. No matter what is thrown at you, you remain kind. No matter what harms you, you remain compassionate. No matter what, you remain hopeful for better days. Its hard, i know. It sucks, i know. Its as though you wish you could be cruel. You wish you could be evil. You wish you could treat them the same way they have treated you. But you ju...
Flawless Victory
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